November 9, 2020

My First Voting Experience

 Yoooooooooooo, did I really forget to announce that I became a US citizen in January of this year here?!?!? UGH! Instagram gets all the announcements and I know I'm the one that forgets to come here and post, but still!!! I'm so sorry everyone. And tomorrow, I'll be there wondering, "What should I post on the blog?" Ndo o. Mi dispiace!

October 10, 2020

Getting to Know Berry Dakara

Hey y'all!

How are ya? I hope you're doing fine and dandy. 

I'm here today to tell you about my recent guest features on 2 podcasts (and a bonus one). I haven't been regular with blogging, but I have been pretty consistent in the podcasting space. My podcast, Mommy Oyoyo is gaining traction and if you haven't yet listened to an episode, I'd say you should check out the very first one to hear why I started the podcast. BUT for the purpose of getting to know Berry 2.0 a little better, I'd like to share these podcast episodes I featured on below :). You can listen while exercising, cleaning, working, relaxing, watching the kids, cooking, fixing the car, running general errands - the list is endless!

1. SEX DURING/AFTER DIVORCE featuring Berry Dakara on the I AM AFRICAN PODCAST hosted by Verastic

Vera and I are just two mad women who stay laughing and making jokes about everything! The feedback I've received from people who have listened range from, "OMG Berry, you and Vera are hilarious!" to "I've just been laughing since I started listening," to "It was very inspiring to hear 2 Nigerian women speak so openly about divorce, and in a light-hearted manner." So, I implore you to listen if you'd like to be entertained by both of us as we share our thoughts on sex during and after divorce.

2. FREEDOM TO COME HOME featuring Berry Dakara on the SHE SPEAKS BOUGIE PODCAST hosted by Tennielle Clark

I met Tennielle at this event in 2016 and we bonded instantly that day. Over the years, even though she moved to a different state, we have kept up with each other via texts and Instagram. She has a wonderful podcast that aims to celebrate black women. I was pleased when she reached out to me to feature on her podcast and talk about the freedom to be an adult while still living in my parents' house. I was pretty open (what else is new) and covered motherhood, divorce, my relationship with my parents and finding myself again as a woman, as the Berry you all know and hopefully love.

3. SINGLE MOM LIFE featuring Berry Dakara on the MOMMY OYOYO PODCAST hosted by ME!

I wasn't quite sure about adding this link/episode to this blog post, but hey, why not? In the latest episode of the podcast (which is close to 10,000 listens), I shared what being a single mother has been like for me so far. I know not everyone will be happy about some of the things I say, but as I mentioned in the episode, it's not my intent to make anyone look bad - I just stated the situation as it's been.

If you listen to any of these episodes, please let me know. I'm open to hearing feedback (positive and constructive) from you. 

Have a great weekend!

September 28, 2020

Visit Catalina Island, California

It's been a while since I put up a travel post, hasn't it? The last time I posted anything travel-related was in January, from last year's Girls Trip to Las Vegas. Funny enough, that was my first real holiday/trip without Coco - same as this trip. I am an advocate for taking time off from parenting once in a while, and focusing on just having fun sans kids. It can be tricky as a single mother, but I thank God for a great support system at home. Coco was with my cousin and her kids for the most part, and her father had her for a little bit. This post is pretty photo-heavy as Catalina is absolutely beautiful, but I will share a little bit about the trip.

August 25, 2020

What Next?

Hello there!!!

I fully planned on putting up another blog post shortly after the last one (where I mentioned, my daughter's father and I are heading towards divorce). I put up that post a day or two before I had pre-determined to take July off. To be honest, I didn't anticipate the response the announcement would get. I got a little overwhelmed and I apologize for not responding to the comments and some emails [yet]. I promise to get to them. 

June 29, 2020

Is this My Life?

Nobody gets married thinking that they'll get divorced. Well, MOST people, cos let's face it there are arrangee marriages out there and just mean people too. But if anyone had told me that I would be facing the end of a marriage, I would have laughed at them. Like how? I purposely refused to have a boyfriend for 6 years before I met my soon-to-be ex-husband because I didn't want to keep dating. I had promised myself that when I had a boyfriend again, he would be the person I would end up marrying and divorce was certainly not an option for me. But life happens. 

I'm not sure if you guys noticed when this blog's slogan changed from "The Sweet Life|Style of Berry Dakara" to "Real Life Happens." I think by that point, everything had started unraveling. But I still hoped. I still prayed. I still fasted.

When everyone congratulated me for snapping back after having Coco, what they didn't know was that I had stopped eating. I fasted for months, begging and pleading and crying to God to please just fix things. I wailed. I threatened. I did things that I would never have thought myself capable of doing. I made poor decisions. I did things that no "good" Christian should do. 

It has been a hard 3 years. Actually I should say 4 years although "he" might say it was the entire marriage (at least that's what I've heard has been said about me). You don't think that you could ever hate someone you once loved and vice versa. You don't think that you would ever be in the circumstance of having to raise a child separately... a child that you both prayed TOGETHER for. 

I lost myself. After Coco was born up until 2019 was a blur. I lost weight. I gained weight (that I'm now struggling to lose again, UGH!). I don't know how many months I spent crying daily. Imagine having a newborn and spiraling into depression over your failing marriage. Imagine having to send a message to Bella Naija to please remove the features of your engagement and wedding. Imagine having to little by little, inform your family and friends that your marriage is over. Sometimes I  think people must be laughing at me... People are probably saying "is it not her that wanted a beach wedding?" People whispering about you... based on their own assumptions or false/incomplete information that has been spread about you.

I once thought about getting into my car with the garage door closed and turning the car on. A few times I wished a truck would run into me so I wouldn't have to deal with the pain anymore. It's been more than exhausting for the past 3 years. I have been strained mentally (thank God for therapy and my friend who paid for 6 months worth), financially (thank God for family, friends, Clever Girl Finance and God himself for provision), emotionally (again Thank God for therapy, friends and family), physically (I need to take better care of myself), etc.

I had a crisis of faith. Yes, I stopped believing that God answers prayers, which is ironic because my name literally means God answers prayers. I felt abandoned. I felt forgotten. I felt unforgiven. I felt discarded. I still struggle now spiritually if I'm being perfectly honest. Sometimes I ask what's the point of praying for one thing or another when the one thing I begged for for 2.5 years wasn't granted. I'm still struggling.

Life happens.

To everyone who has been there for me, and for my most beautiful child, thank you. To God, I know you're out there and I want to come back and feel loved again. To the dreams I had with my daughter's father, I'm letting go now. 

I will be fine. My daughter will be fine. I'm already on the road to recovery. I thank God in advance for my complete restoration (first my faith and relationship with Him before anything else please).

Thank you to everyone who has followed me for years. If you're disappointed, I understand. But LIFE HAPPENS. 

God bless.

P.S. I fully and firmly believe it takes two people when a marriage or relationship or even a friendship breaks down. Nobody's perfect and people make mistakes... some people can forgive easier than others and others reserve the right to either not forgive, or to forgive but not continue with the relationship. 

P.P.S. There's typically more than one side to every story. 

P.P.P.S Some people may read this post and say that I'm inferring to be the/a victim in the ending of our marriage. I fully contributed to the end... however, that does not mean I didn't (or still don't) feel pain. Divorce sucks! It is the most painful thing anyone can experience, and to do it with a newborn is worse. I would not wish the kind of pain I went through on anyone... you included if you're reading this (you know who you are). I would say that it has been an equally painful process for my daughter's father but I do not speak for him. 

June 20, 2020

Mommy Oyoyo Podcast is ONE!

It's been one year since I decided to go from "I think I'm going to start a podcast" to recording and publishing my very first Mommy Oyoyo podcast episode. 

June 19, 2020

Happy 3rd Birthday to Coco!

Can you guys believe my baby girl is 3 whole years old today????? I have an entire THREENAGER on my hands!!! It feels like just yesterday, I was crying on Youtube about trying to conceive, then announcing my pregnancy here and to my family, and giving birth to her! I am super blessed to be her mother and I know without a shred of doubt that she was 100% created by God for me. I'm one happy mama and I ask that you say a prayer for Coco today. Woot woot!!!!!!

June 15, 2020

Live Chat with Mommy Oyoyo Podcast Host - Berry Dakara

It's been almost one year since I started the Mommy Oyoyo podcast. As a matter of fact, this coming Saturday (the day after Coco's birthday) is the exact date a year after starting. I plan to put up a post then, but before that, I wanted to highlight that last week Wednesday, I was interviewed about being a podcaster! Shawn Ventura, of Lights Camera Pro Podcast, put out a call for podcasters to interview in his new series, and I was honored to be part of his lineup!

The video is available on the Mommy Oyoyo Facebook page, website, and also on Youtube! Please watch as I share how I started the Mommy Oyoyo podcast, why I started it and different things I've learned in the past year. 

This week I'm looking forward to marking the one-year anniversary since I started the Mommy Oyoyo podcast (you can listen here) and Coco's 3rd birthday!!!

May 31, 2020

It was My Birthday


This past Friday, May 29th was my 38th birthday. For the first time in years, I actually looked forward to my birthday. In 2018 and 2019 I actually turned my phone off on my birthday because I didn't want to have to deal with all the happy wishes and pretend that I was thrilled. I was grateful for the wishes, yes but I was not in a good place. I haven't really shared what the past few years have really been like for me - but those who pay attention know that things haven't been quite the same. I've been a bit subdued and not as happy-go-lucky as I used to be. Just last week I shared a photo from 5 years ago, where I was dancing at my cousin's wedding. One of my family friends asked me, "Do you think you were happier then?" I answered affirmatively because the major aspects of my life were going very well at the time. My friend mentioned how I used to dance in the rain, and twirl all the time, and that she misses the old me. And guess what? I do too.

May 10, 2020

Happy Mothers Day! Three Generations of Ada!

About a week ago, Coco decided she wanted to wear her black and white "princess dress" for the day. She's worn it several (more like a hundred) times, but for some reason, on this particular day, I had the bright idea to dress up in black and white stripes as well. I thought it would make for a fun little Mummy and Me photo shoot, and since my sister who's taken all our Mummy and Me photos is with us riding out the pandemic, I quickly roped her in. I just wanted a few photos that I would eventually share, and in about 10 minutes or so, we were done. 

April 22, 2020

Infertility Awareness Week and Trying to Conceive

Hey everyone,

We are in the middle of Infertility Awareness Week and I wanted to share some of the content that I have created around the topic, in case you or someone you know is looking for encouragement while trying to conceive.

April 1, 2020

A Day in the Life of Social Distancing

This blog post is inspired by the one I saw on Cupcakes & Cashmere. I thought it would be pretty interesting to share what a typical weekday has been like for Coco and I in the past few weeks. Today is Day 24 since we started actively staying home. As I mentioned in this post, a teacher in her daycare was positive for the virus and her daycare was shut down for two weeks. While they reopened after the mandatory quarantine period, I did not feel very comfortable with sending her back - especially since the governor in our state had shut down public schools already.

March 31, 2020

Behind the Scenes of Mommy Oyoyo Podcast

Hi there!

If you've been following me for a little bit now, then you know that I have a podcast called the Mommy Oyoyo podcast. I started the podcast on Anchor about 9 months ago and it's been slowly growing a loyal following. I wish it would grow much faster though, but I thank God for progress! Anyway, an old friend of mine who I've featured on the blog before (see here) filmed a Behind the Scenes project with me and I'm sharing it today for your viewing pleasure.

March 18, 2020

It's Been a While

Hi there!

I know it's been a long long time. To be honest, I think my blogging days may be over - no matter what Vera says :p. I really haven't felt motivated to blog at all. At least not until today. These are trying times, with the global coronavirus pandemic shutting down normal day-to-day life. If you listen to the Mommy Oyoyo podcast (which I have been keeping up with), then you know that Coco has been under quarantine since a teacher in her school tested positive for the virus. Today is actually the last day of her quarantine according to the Department of Public Health. The plan was to send her back to daycare tomorrow, but at this rate, I may have to keep her at home.

February 5, 2020

PhotoWall - Wall Art Review (With Discount Code)

I have lived in my parents' house since I moved back to the US about 4 years ago. I have been very blessed to have their support, not only with accommodation, but also with helping me out with Coco. I am constantly reminded how lucky and blessed I am, and I don't take their hospitality and love for granted.

That being said, coming from having my own apartment while I lived in Lagos, to living less independently has been... interesting. The perk of not having to pay rent, is of course AMAZING! And again, having Coco's grandparents around most of the time, is a HUGE help to me. But sometimes, I do miss my independence and having my own space and domain. 

January 28, 2020

Girls Trip to Las Vegas - A Photo Story

Hey y'all,

This post is a long time coming! I originally planned to put up these photos from our girls trip to Las Vegas late last year. Unfortunately, I just got really tired and could not bring myself to blog at all. I was still active on social media (mostly Instagram), and putting a lot of efforts into my podcast (Mommy Oyoyo). Admittedly, I also toyed with the idea of shutting down the blog - I know you're rolling your eyes at me, because it's not the first, second or third time I've thought about it. Anyway, as you can tell, the blog has not been shut down, LOL.

I hope you enjoy the photos. Scroll down to the end for a little note on why I went to Las Vegas, and what we got up to while there.

January 15, 2020


Hi everyone!

I'm just here to tell you that I'm alive. And mostly well. And I will be back soon. And I'm also sorry for just disappearing like that without notice.

See ya in a bit!