How are ya? How was your weekend? Mine was jam-packed! And I can tell you that I spent at least 2 hours in traffic. I don't understand why there should be a huge traffic jam on a Saturday afternoon or night in Lekki - especially Oando/Jakande roundabouts. It's so infuriating that I'm thisclose to staying home every weekend from now on - unless Cakes is driving.
On Friday afternoon, our dance/drama ministry leader asked if I could help out with a very short skit at church for yesterday's service. I was available, and agreed. It was a short skit with 2 others from the team. We had a cafe setting, and I was the waitress - the purpose of the skit was to let the church know about the Cafe Rouge Ministry in my church. You can read about them here.
BUT about 45 minutes before we had to get on stage, I started feeling the familiar churning in my stomach, my heart beat began to pick up pace, and I knew that I didn't want to participate in the skit anymore. I tried to rehearse my lines, and I kept making mistakes. I was having a mini panic attack. When I mentioned it to our leader and the other actors, 2 of them laughed at me, thinking I was joking. They said that I'm such a good actress and there's no way I can have stage fright. I explained that whenever I have to get on stage, I feel literally sick to my stomach and freak out inwardly... as soon as I step on stage, it's a completely different story... and then when I get off, I'm thanking God it's over.
Yesterday, I prayed, "God, this skit is for you. You have a message you want to get out. I am forgetting my lines. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE speak for me, because I'm afraid I'll mess everything up." You would think the prayer would calm me down, but I was still panicking backstage. And then, I got on stage and it was an out-of-body experience. It's like I was watching myself. The lines came out so smoothly. I wasn't trying to remember lines - they just came out of my mouth. I remember thinking "Wow, God is the one talking o," while I was on stage. After the skit was done, I was so relieved and went back to my seat. When the service was over, different people came up to congratulate me on a job well done. Little did they know how nervous I was beforehand.
Unfortunately, I don't have a video of the skit yet, but you can watch this scene from a play we did last year, where I played King Herod's wife. Believe me, I wanted to throw up before going on stage.
Even though I get stage fright, I have to say that I do enjoy acting a lot :)
Have a nice week.