I know, I know. My late weekend posts seem to be becoming a bad habit. They're usually supposed to be up by 9am (Nigerian time) at the very latest on Mondays. The past 2 weeks, I've posted on Monday evening because I was just too tired on the Sundays before...
which brings me to this point...
Going out and planning activities almost every weekend can get quite tiring. It's not just having to get dressed, go out and have fun. These days, there's very stupid traffic to contend with back to our apartment. No joke, on Saturdays, there's as much traffic as rush hour on weekdays!!! By the time I've gone out, had fun, taken a million photos and driven back in traffic, the exhaustion is on several levels! And I still have to select photos, edit them, watermark them and wait for the slowest internet in the world to upload for my posts. The times I've been able to get my post ready early, I literally select the photos and leave them to upload overnight.
Why am I telling you this?
Well, sometime last week, I had something like an anxiety attack at work. I was about to finish a report, and all of a sudden felt intense pressure in my head. My heart was racing, and it was hard to breathe. I tried walking around and stretching, but it only made me feel claustrophobic. I literally at one point was crying at my desk. Luckily it was only a couple of hours before work was over, so I did some breathing exercises and tried to calm myself, waiting for the clock to tick by.
I think it happened because I really have been simply exhausted - physically, mentally, everything-ally. I actually thought about putting up a post to say that I want to take a 2-week break from the blog and all social media. No weekend outings, no blogging, no putting up Instagram posts for the 3 accounts I manage, just nothing. If life was perfect, I would right now be sitting in some remote Italian village, waking up only to eat, watch the sun and maybe listen to waves crash against the shore.
*takes a deep breath*
So, I just wanted to share. There's actually a weekend post coming later today or tomorrow, but I wanted to just let out some of my thoughts. You guys know I like to share and be honest. So pleeeeeeeeeeease just bear with me, forgive me for the recent late weekend posts, and send some love and prayers my way.
Thanks for reading.