Hey there!
Can you believe the year is almost half done? In a little over a week, we'll officially be halfway through 2016! Have you accomplished the goals on your checklist? How do you feel about the year so far?
Well, for me, I've been largely fine. And as I learned this week, FINE = BAREST MINIMUM! As in, BASIC... Simply getting by. Nothing fantastic, great or awesome. Maybe it's because I've been in a little funk for the past few days, with my feelings coming out yesterday in an emotional outburst!
Truthfully, I've been second-guessing myself, feeling inadequate and less-than. My self-esteem is taking a battering, mostly self-induced. Instead of focusing on the positives, I've secretly been wallowing in the worries of my life as it is now.
Some of it stems from the lack of a job - if you haven't been there, being unemployed and job hunting can seriously take a lot from you. Sending out resumes and cover letters without getting call backs and interviews can hammer on your self-esteem.
Yesterday I broke down. I practically locked myself in a room and cried (while still writing cover letters and editing my resume :p). It took talking to my dad at the end of the day to stop the tears and self pity. I was reminded that job searches take time. As a matter of fact, I just read that on average, it takes 43 days - and some industries or job levels take even longer. For me, it's barely been 22 days and let's be honest, I haven't actively looked every single day.
Of course, there are other issues, such as the one I mentioned
here, and the weight that won't go away (DUH! When I'm eating cake everyday and not exercising *rolls eyes*). I've even let it get to my blogging - I'm sure some of you have noticed. Sawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
But it's time to get off that pity horse and make changes where I can, and accept things that I cannot change by myself. Life is too short to wallow and sulk.
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P.S. Thanks to everyone who's been reading and leaving comments in my
UK series!
